Thursday, July 30, 2009

the light and the tunnel

I don't know if you're in a tunnel.

If you are, don't lose heart.

There is light at the end.

I promise.
"This is the verdict: Light has come into the world..."
-John 3:19

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

The Journey(s)

I've started a few new journeys over the past couple of weeks.
A new journey can be scary.

Not knowing what lies ahead can cause you to fear, worry, or
. . .

celebrate?
The unknown can push you, press on you, and test you. But test you to do what? I think it can push you to trust.
trust.

Trust.

TRUST!
Why is this small word so hard for us? Really, why is this small word so hard for me? I want to reach out and touch, feel, see with my own eyes the things I am putting my hope and trust in. Wouldn't that be so much easier, so much more simple?

"Those who know Your name will trust in You, for you, LORD, have never forsaken

those who seek You."

-Psalm 9:10


As I find it hard to trust, in the stillness of my heart I am reminded the One in whom I can put my trust. He loves fiercely. He loves me like a hurricane. . . a hurricane. Wow. This love He has for me can hold all of my hopes because He will never disappoint. He will never fail. He will never be late or early or inconsistent or deceiving. He will always be everything...everything I need Him to be. If I can't trust in that, I do not want to trust in anything at all.

So...

happy journey to you.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Speaking of lingering thoughts...

Two blogs in one day. Whoa.

Some lingering thoughts I've had this summer can be summed up in the lyrics of this song:

He is jealous for me.
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree-
bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.
When all of a sudden
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory.
And I realize just how beautiful You are
and how great Your affections are for me.
and oh, how He loves us
oh, how He loves us so
how He loves us all.
We are His portion and He is our prize-
drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes.
If grace is an ocean, we're all sinking.
So heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss,
and my heart turns violently inside my chest.
I don't have time to maintain these regrets
when I think about the way
He loves us.
~How He Loves, David Crowder Band
How He loves us...it's too impossible to comprehend. I have felt so undeserving these days. Aren't we all undeserving, though? And isn't that the beauty of it all? We, undeserving creatures, are 'bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy.' My human mind cannot even really begin to process this, but I am so thankful.

Long time, no blog

Oh boy.

It's been a long time, eh?

So, I have this love/hate relationship with blogging at times. Most of the time, I love it. It let's me share thoughts that linger in my head and allows me to keep in touch with dear friends now spread across the U S of A.

Sometimes, I don't like it at all. I feel overwhelmed when I don't blog because I feel the need to play a game of catch up, which is never very fun.

However, I am pushing through my blogging-apathy because I want to continue to document this time in my life.

So, here is to continue this blogging journey. Gosh, I hope I get better at this.